Relationships are hard. I am sure this is not news, but Scripture sure makes it abundantly clear. Whether it is Noah and his son; Abram, Sarai, and Hagar or now Jacob, Leah, and Rachel. When I read of this family's life, my heart always goes out to Leah. How demeaned she must have felt; talk about an inferiority complex. Yet, God blessed her in ways only He can. In the culture of her day, having sons was seen as a great benefit. They were able to provide for and protect in ways daughters could not. Leah acknowledged the LORD as the One who provided her sons. Look at the meaning of the names she gave her sons in Genesis 29:32-35. Interestingly, Leah's emphasis, until Judah, on each son's name was her relationship to Jacob.
Father, may I be in the same frame of mind as Leah when she named Judah. I want the emphasis of my life to be "This time I will praise the LORD." I confess, just like Leah, I have acknowledged You but only for what I want, not just for who You are. I desire for that to change, please forgive me.
"Now the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. And when they saw him they worshiped him, but some doubted."
Worship with doubt, how can that happen? When I read passages like this one, I am always thankful for God's description of His people, warts and all. This event, inevitably causes my mind to scream "WHAT! How can that be with all they had experienced with Jesus." What does it take for a sinful, human heart to believe? How can I believe and love with my whole heart? Then I noticed the passage does not say "some worshiped him and some doubted." We are told "they," the eleven, worshiped Him, some even in their doubt. I am so thankful to see the saints warts and all because I too, worship Him in my doubt.
Holy Spirit, thank You for the gift of belief. Help my unbelief.
How fickle are people? The people of Malta's opinion of Paul went from murder to god almost in the blink of an eye. Why would I ever put my hope and trust in people who can be so inconsistent? God makes it very clear not to do such a thing. For an understanding of God's view: "It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man. It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in princes." (Psalm 118:8-9) And Jeremiah 17:5-7 says, "Thus says the LORD: 'Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the LORD. He is like a shrub in the desert, and shall not see any good come. He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness, in an uninhabited salt land. Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD.'"
Father, why would I put my trust in man when I find myself to be untrustworthy? I have let myself down so many times, why am I surprised when other men do the same thing? Wisdom is trust in You the only wise God. May I be a wise man.